Well, I don't know what to say diet-wise.
Or should I say health-wise?
Those of you who have been reading my blog know that I'm currently suffering from a stomach ulcer, but am I?
I have this gnawing feeling (no pun intended!) that it's really my gallbladder.
When I first got ill, that was first suspected, there was no doubt in the doctor or anyones mind that it was anything else-I had bile turn up in my urine, when they poked my tummy in all the different areas and did scans, the pain was (and still is) coming from the exact location of the gallbladder- though the scan showed I have a few small stones, they said it wouldn't cause major pain/problems and I'm now awaiting an endoscopy to see whether it's an ulcer or not.
My health this week has been so bad, I just don't know how much more of this I can take! That sounds so pathetic, it's only been a few months, but I'm sick of the chronic diarrhea (containing yellow bile) the waking up in the middle of the night to be sick, no matter what I've eaten, being absent from my class..
Ugh. But it's just this week that it's mainly got to me-I usually can handle all the symptoms in the daytime but now I'm barely getting a few hours sleep every night-I'll sleep a few hours when I first get to sleep and then I wake up and have to be sick and end up on the bathroom floor a few hours before nodding off from exhaustion.
Anywho, that being said luckily I have now started my holidays.
Diet-wise, as you would imagine I haven't been eating much as right now it's hard to keep stuff down and I suffer from nausea alot, but I still make sure I'm eating.
For lunch I had a chicken sandwich and for dinner I had a chicken salad-I know I'm not eating enough at the moment but hopefully it's just temporary.
Speaking of food, I know many of us have emotional attatchments to food/eating, I know I do! but this is the first time I've felt a certain emotion towards food, and that's fear.
Over food I've felt guilt, anger, obsession, frustration, elation and comfort but now I'm feeling fear because of being sick all the time lately.
Part of me has cut down on my food and drinking because I'm afraid of throwing up, and running to the toilet constantly.
But from this moment forward I've got to start drinking enough water! It's so important.
Sorry for the moan, hopefully things will get better! And thankyou to all those following me, I really appreciate it. <3